littledreamer_x's Xanga

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 01:44:58 GMT

Life's grand.

Monday, August 14, 2006

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 20:30:41 GMT

I like you?

I've decided, I'm not going to complain about the little things anymore. Well, I'll try not to. It's time to grow up and accept things as they are. Hopefully I'll mature in one way or another?

Aside from that, happy birthday to my brother, dad, and Ace!

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 04:29:47 GMT

And, I find myself wondering who would really miss me if I moved from Deptford to wherever. I ask myself, "Who really matters to me?" Then again, I'd be my regular five year old self again, complaining about every little thing. I want my pain to stop but it never seems to end. Everyday something just seems to go worse, and it's hard to cope with. I've been told i'm so much stronger than this, but i'm no longer as strong as they tell me. I'm not one to cry twice in the same week, but here I am crying as I type every single letter. I'll just stop..

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 02:10:12 GMT

So, summer is almost coming to an end. Thank goodness. My brother's birthday is coming up within the next few weeks. After that, I leave for band camp for a few days. Then, school starts almost a week later. Soon after that, my birthday is here. Wow this year flew by fast. I can hardly believe i'm going to be a sophomore within the next months and a week. I can only hope I do as good as I did this previous school year, but do better. I'm hoping i'm not stuck in another boring lunch period with the same annoying people. I couldn't stand it. Oh well. I say, school year of two thousand six to two thousand seven, bring it on.

Oh, and by the way, the picture in my profile is old. It's from back in January. Whoohoo? Mkay.

Monday, July 24, 2006

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 03:05:11 GMT

You've changed, and I can't stand it.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 20:49:46 GMT

YOU should just be a dream.

A dream that never would come true, but a dream that I dreamt every night. No matter how bad you hurt me, it wouldn't matter because you would only just be another dream. But, no, you aren't. And, now, you leave me hanging. I'm tired of your games. I'm tired of your foolishness. I'm tired of the way you kick me around like I've no feelings. We're all human, we've all feelings. Why don't you see it? You're better off as a dream I know of.

I wonder why you do this to me. You don't do this to every other girl, do you? I doubt it. You mess around with my feelings. You take me to a point, and then drop me off like I'm in some way a one-night stand. I'm tired of it. Tell me why it's always messing around with how I feel. I thought I was over it, and I was. Until you had to come back and mess it up for me. I wish I could state your name, but I can't. It's something I'd rather keep to myself. You probably have the idea that it's you after reading this, but I'm only going to deny it. So, if you do know it's you, I hope you understand this shouldn't be my reality.

Though, I know nothing stands a chance, I hope you know, you killed me.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 14:30:46 GMT

Dreams..

Last night, I had the weirdest dream ever. The ironic thing is, it was about this boy, who I used to like at a small point, not anything like a crush, but I didn't have much feelings for him, when I did like him. Yet, I still have to get over this other boy. The catch is, the dream was just something I know would never happen. In a million years would something like that ever happen. If you want the full story on my dream, ask me. I'm not putting it all out here.

Aside from that, yesterday was Family Olympics of 2006. It was great, until near the end. It happens every year I go, but not the storm. Oh well, I made it through last year, so what difference does it make this year? I saw basically everyone I know from every locale from who I can remember right now. Plus, I saw the few i've known for three years now that I haven't ever seen yet. Crazy. I met a few new people, but I now forget who, hehe. Go Southern New Jersey, we almost beat Temple Hills, but lost by one point. Great job. Near the end, it stormed, but like Dan had said, they should have just waited about ten minutes for the storm to pass and they could of gone back to playing. Oh well. Hopefully I can go next year.